My birthday just past. And unlike any birthday I have had, it was one of completion. No I have not accomplished everything I ever dreamed of and no it wasn't full of a new exotic adventure I have been dying to try. But it was one of finally merging the different facets of my life into one. I came to terms with well... my journey.
I look back at all the times I was confused by what I desired, confused by where I was in life, and even confused by who I was. One thing I learned was if you spend enough time walking into walls, you finally realize that maybe just maybe you should stop walking into walls. What a brilliant discovery. You do learn something new everyday. But all this confusion lead me to the best thing possible, a fully formed, determined, and complete me.
I decided to blog so that I could find the rhythm of my life. One thing you learn as you get older is that as much as you think you know, you really don't know anything and you are constantly changing. If only I could have told my eighteen year old self, "hey you may feel like an adult but do understand you will never ever have all the answers". Which honestly is super awesome because the responsibility of having answers is taken off my shoulders. If we could respond to all the questions people throw at us with "look I don't have the answers" the journey of self discovery would be more pure.
Sounds like I maybe becoming an adult. Definitely a little later than I thought.